This month in my journey of Biblical womanhood I committed to practice contemplative prayer. It's something I've done in the past, in fact it'ss something I used to enjoy. At the moment out is certainly something that needs practice. God is not easy to find at the moment let alone hear. I find good in creation and in creation but the small still voice seems to be far from me when I pray.
I suffer from depression. In many quarters depression is not understood and in Christian quarters depression is seen by many as a condition or out come of sin. Some will go as far as to label depression an outcome of personal sin. I wonder if they would say the same to a diabetic or an epileptic who need medicine in order to stay alive.
For me one of the side effects of depression is anxiety. Anxiety is crippling however in my most anxious moments I am able to lean on God, to ask for his help to get me through. Even when I'm too anxious to ask I know he is there supporting and upholding me.
Contemplative prayer is going to need some more practice this month. Creative prayer will maybe be added to the Mix as an aid to contemplation. This said whilst at my spinning class on Sunday night, the prayer on my lips was "why Lord would anyone do this for pleasure, and please don't let me die before the end of this class!"
No comments:
Post a Comment